I haven’t run more than 3 miles since my half marathon in mid-March, and it feels great. I now go to yoga or run on any given day – but not both. I haven’t ballooned up four size or anything and in fact I fit into jeans I couldn’t before. Having a more normal activity level makes me less hungry in general. That probably shouldn’t be a surprise, but it is!
I’m moving halfway across the country next week. I am nervous but also excited about the opportunity to renew in this way too. It’s not a new year, but it seems like a good time for some resolutions:
– I will try to love my body as it is. I don’t want to need a number to feel okay, but I may need it to start. A size 6 or 8 at 5’5″ tall is thin enough. No one is perfect.
– I will be mindful of the time I dedicate to yoga and running in relation to other activities, and so I am doing these healthy, beneficial activities for their own sake, and not compulsively.
– I will pause before reacting strongly in words or actions. I will keep trying, because “failures” or “rejections” are not about me personally.
– I will be mindful that loving myself is important before I can accept the love of others.
– I will go ahead and do things, without waiting to be perfect, or to be perfectly prepared. I am ready now.
– I will take advantage of LOTS of new student deals at yoga studios before enrolling in a monthly unlimited pass because I love the first studio I attend.
Some of my teachers start a class saying something about a specific focus – related to the physical practice, one of the limbs of yoga, or just something they have been thinking about. Today my teacher mentioned how learning about the bandhas was like learning about something powerful she had inside her that she hadn’t know about before.
I like this idea. And I’ve learned something about myself recently: I have it in me to give up something difficult. Read the rest of this entry
Watching movies from Redbox and sitting on my psuedo-couch are a few of the signs that I’ve “made it” – out of survival mode, that is. This xojane article really struck a cord – even though it’s not exactly on this topic.
I don’t mean to wallow in self pity or minimize more severe crises that others face. I am sure that some people would say that I am doing okay if I can afford $108 a month for yoga.
Being in survival mode means I pause thinking of the long term, and just get through each day. I need to focus on having a financial safety net in case I need it soon … time spent in most other ways (yoga and running are exceptions) I deem squandered unless I can connect it with networking or contributing to my safety net in some other way. This author talks about walking two hours to save $2.50 on public transport. Been there, done that.
I’ve had a lot of great experiences in my life and a lot of very hard ones, neither of which I’d want to give up. Read the rest of this entry